[Project FeeTrail July 2013]: Befriend the Unknown

This month, I met my spiritual adviser for the very first time. I never really thought I would be the "holy" type, or someone wanting a spiritual adviser. I've always wanted to talk to a shrink, but then I think I need to talk someone on another level. I decided I want a spiritual adviser whom I can really be honest with. 

I needed someone to tell me where I messed up, help me understand on a whole new level. I know I wanted to get a shrink before, but it's expensive and because, hello...this is the Philippines. But other personalities I know that do have these kind of advisers, like Kris Aquino and one of my favorite bloggers, Cecile Van Straten. I did not get one to join a bandwagon, I got one because I needed it. And you just don't get someone for the sake of having one, you have to pray for it. And I did, sincerely.

She said she wasn't supposed to take any counseling sessions but something about me told her that matches the current project she's working with. And that meeting me was meant to be. I remember the first time I texted her, she was on vacation. I just told her to let me know when she is available and then few weeks later, while I was at the mall, I got a text from her that she is back from her vacation. After a month of trying to match our schedule, we finally made our first appointment. I got a spiritual adviser.  

So this photo captures the first time I traveled alone to meet a stranger. Although it is not too far, but the driving force that I have to go there is not based on meeting a beau or an out-of-town trip to meet with friends. I went there for myself.

I know some might want to do the same, but to truly experience it to the fullest is to start acknowledging that you need help, you are doing something about it and that you will have to have an open mind and  take action steps. Most important of all, you  will really have to strip down your walls and be totally honest about it. I, the queen of walls and trust issues, stripped down my walls and spoke in all honesty, because I did not travel alone this far just to fool myself and expect to hear some kind of validation.