One of my fears realized

From time to time, I find myself in a social media envy of those who seems to have this incredible zest for life. Of course I know SOME social media posts are pretensions (been there, than that, I'm not hypocrite), but today this was shared by someone in my feeds that I don't normal pay attention to, but I'm glad I did today.

I am single in my early thirties and often finds myself thinking ways to achieve financial freedom. Sometimes I want to try to leave home and try out opportunities that'll sure to make me richer (at least in the world's terms).

Sometimes I think, "Shit, with this whole K-12 thing, should I start saving up now for my kids' education?" 

Then I go " Oh wait, I don't even have a boyfriend! Hahahaha!"

Tell you what. Last weekend I spent it with my old friends I have known since I was twelve years old. We rented a pool overnight, went home, went out again the next day for a movie and dinner group date. I mean my friends and I have occasional lunch dates, dinner dates and movie dates. Few days ago I had impromptu lunch with my guy best friends. Since I moved back in 2010, I have not, or very rarely, missed milestones in my friends and family's life, like friends getting married, becoming a god mother three times, not to mention living and seeing my family. Sometimes my own family drives me nuts but it gives me peace of mind that they are within reach, especially in a Philippine typhoon situation, no matter how crazy. I know I can always get to where my mother is at, where my sisters are and our relatives. With that I am thankful. Lately, I often find my self, in the moment, saying my Thank yous. I really am grateful. 

But seriously, I don't want to miss out on my life. I can actually feel this man's pain through the 15 year old gap. Really. 

Thank you Mister for sharing this. I do not want to be so busy trying to make a living that I actually forgot how to live.

Besides, God's got my back.